Blogger’s Block

Today, I tried to blog. The words refused to flow, so I sat with it. This is what happened.

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Sitting With It

I’m sitting here with it: at least a thousand wasted words already erased from this virginal page.

I’m sitting with it: the feeling that being an author is harder than anything I’ve tried before.

I’m sitting with it: the self-doubt that threatens to erode my belief knowing it is another shadow passing through my life.

I’m sitting with it: the fact that failure is not an option and that my experiences and wisdom can touch someone.

I’m sitting with it: that this crazy anxiety that even now in retirement from my professional life, I don’t have to fill every moment.

I’m sitting with it: the fact that life can be a pleasure, free of self-coercion.

I’m sitting with it: the fact that each of us is worthy of space, which gives our creativity wings.

I’m sitting with it: that clearly, it is hard to say, I deserve peace, joy and happiness and that it’s easier to generalise.

I’m sitting with it: the uncertainty that touches all dreams with grey mist, robbing them of colour and life.

I’m sitting with it; the fact that mental health gains prevalence in our society paling people’s vitality.

I’m sitting with it: all around me the black dog visits, anxiety spirals churn and people turn increasingly to drugs and alcohol just to stop the noise.

I’m sitting with it: that we walk along the road, looking down at our phones or bummed out on music.

I’m sitting with it: old people look you in the eye and smile warmly if you engage with them.

I’m sitting with it: that it can be hard to reach into another’s pain when they are walled off by overwhelm.

I’m sitting with it: that as a human, I need to reach out and touch the lives of others by caring.

I’m sitting with it: my happiness will come and go but I can always make another smile.

 

If you need someone to talk to:

Beyond Blue

Lifeline

Kid’s Helpline

 

 

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